Bring me joy...

Hello everyone!! Hoping you are having a great Friday! Last night I went to the Houston Rodeo. I had a great time with the boyfriend but I didn’t get home till almost 1:00am, so I am really tired today! But as God always does, he surprised me with an awesome sunrise. Of course I left my phone at home because I was in a hurry so I can’t share it with you, but it was really beautiful. Just a reminder of God’s love for us…

Ok, I have to admit that I did something really, really stupid!! And I knew better!! As I have mentioned before, I am reading So Long Insecurity to get rid of all the extra baggage that I have willingly carried around as long as I can remember. So this comes as an even bigger disappointment! I was on Facebook the other day, which normally isn’t a problem, but I saw something on there that really shook me up! I guess maybe because I really wasn’t expecting it and it is one of my insecurities. Of course, I started with the questions… Are you kidding me? Surely, you have to be kidding me and on and on. And if you have been reading, you probably know this is a huge problem of mine. Analyzing a “problem” over and over and there really isn’t going to be a solution, working myself up until I’m all frazzled. So, I feel horrible to admit that I fell into the trap head first. And isn’t that what the devil is always trying to do?? For the last couple of weeks I have felt my cup was overflowing with joy and here he goes throwing my same old lure out there. And for a few minutes (well, actually I’m not sure how long it lasted) I took the bait. What’s sad is that I know in my head that the relationship wasn’t good for me. It wasn’t meant to be and I know that! But it still hurt.

Thankfully, (after my mini-fit) I gave it up to God asking that He cover me with his strength and dignity. I have so much to be thankful for to worry about what happened in the past. God has blessed me and is continuing to bless me so why should I focus on the negative?? It’s the past for a reason. I realize God allowed that season to happen and I can honestly say that I did grow from it, but again it is the past. I can’t say that I am totally “over it”, but God is working on me. I just have to remember in the moments before the “Are you kidding me????,” I need to call on God to help me get through it and He will. Hope you have a good weekend!

“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalm 94:19

Filling my cup

Hey everyone!! Hope everyone is doing good! I got some really good news last night. My boyfriend surprised me with tickets to see Brad Paisley at the Houston Rodeo on Thursday! I am really excited!! It will be a fun date night for us, even though it’s during the week and we both have work the next day! So, I am thankful for my boyfriend who is always doing sweet things for me. Actually, I probably need to thank his momma for growin’ him up right!!! Hahaha.

Ok, as I write this I am really not sure what my topic is going to be about, so bear with me! Normally I have an idea of what I am going to write about but I just feel like my heart is overflowing right now and I can’t pin point it to one topic. I am reading the So Long Insecurity book by Beth Moore and participating in her book discussion online. All the ladies on there have really blessed me more than I can imagine. Some of the heartache that they have been through has broken my heart but I know God can heal all their wounds and help make them more secure women in the process. Through this blog, I have met a couple of women who I would not have met otherwise, let me rephrase that…God has brought a couple of women in my life that I would not have met otherwise. I have learned so much from them and want thank God for them. (I wanna give a shout out to April & Beth!! Thanks for being my new blogger friends!! : ) )
Don’t you just love being in the right place at the right time. I feel that is where I am with God now, like everything is just clicking together. It may be because I upped my prayer game and God is near. It may be because I have opened my heart more and saw God’s awesome hand move. I don’t know which one it is, but I love it! Really, I can’t explain this feeling other than my heart is overflowing with joy which is funny because I have been praying for God to fill my cup with the fruits of the Holy Spirit. Well, it’s not funny…it’s just real. It’s so amazing when God uses you to further his plan AND you can see the outcome immediately.

This past weekend, I had a great time with a really good friend. We are discussing the So Long Insecurity book together and after our discussion Saturday I just felt so happy. I know that no one likes to talk about their insecurities, but it was awesome to be able to connect with her on another level that we normally wouldn’t discuss. It’s freeing to realize what your securities are and to be able to ask God to help you become more secure in those areas. There are definitely going to be trials, but they are there to help you grow. I read somewhere that God uses change to change us. I’m so glad you read this. It may not necessarily have a specific point, but just know that God is here. He is willing to help you whenever you need him and you can rely on his strength to get you through anything. Again, thanks for reading and hope you have a great week!!

“She is clothed in strength and dignity.” Proverbs 31:25

Answered Prayers

Hello! Hope everyone is having a good week so far!! I am under the weather today but I want to thank God that I am getting better! Yesterday was pretty bad but I can already tell I am on my way to recovery. Praying for a speedy recovery!!

Well, it all started Monday night. I came home with a headache and just not feeling that great. I was thinking because the upcoming changes in the weather, my sinus' were starting to act up. Well, I laid down and slept for a little while and felt worse when I got up. My body was aching and my chest felt congested but I wasn't coughing or anything and I had a 99 fever. Well, Tuesday morning I felt like someone ran over me!! I haven't been this sick in a LONG time and I am such a baby when it comes to things like this. I made a Dr. appointment and slept all day waiting to see the Dr. I called my mom and told her what my symptoms were and she said it sounded like I had the flu!! I don't think I have ever had the flu, or if so I don't remember it but I prayed "Lord, please don't let me have the flu."...specifically, right??

When I got there they did the normal blood pressure and temperature and I had 103 fever! They immediately did a flu test, which by the way is a nose swab up your nose!! I was not prepared for that! Let's just say it wasn't pleasant. As I waited I still prayed not to have the flu and guess what...I didn't. So then they did a blood test (which I wasn't prepared for also!!) to see if I had an infection and that came back negative too. So needless to say, I'm not really sure what I have, I just know it's not the flu! Could I have prayed for God to just heal me?? I guess I could have, but then would I have had the same message? God listens to us and hears our prayers, even if we limit his way to answer. We need to realize that God's ways are limitless and He still performs miracles everyday, we just sometimes don't realize it because we are too focused on the hustle & bustle of our daily lives. We need to believe God more, not just that He exists, but that He is who He says He is. Hope you have a great week!!

"If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20-21

Not Your Normal Valentine's Post

Hey everyone!! Hope everything is going well with you! This morning, on the way to work (it was 6:45am and I was barely functioning!!!!), I saw the most amazing sunrise. I really wish that I wasn’t rushing to get to work or I would’ve stopped and taken some pictures. It reminded me of the email that tells us God has created things like that for our pleasure. He doesn’t have to do that, He just does because He loves us!!

Well, Valentines’ day has come and gone, just like it was another day. I don’t know if I build it up in my head or what, but it never seems to live up to the hype. I don’t want you to think I didn’t have a nice valentines’ day, because I had a great day (dinner & a movie at home!!) but maybe I over exaggerate it, making me feel like I should’ve done more… I don’t know. I think it’s just what I do. An over-thinker and an OVER-analyzer!!! This is something that I have been working on the last couple of weeks and it is going to take a lot of patience & endurance. It’s how I am wired, so I am praying that God helps me break the habit!

Probably because of Valentines’ day approaching, most of the articles or blogs that I have read have focused on love. Love is something everyone wants, no matter what anyone says. It could be love from a parent, a friend or a love interest, just the feeling of being love and accepted makes you feel good. It becomes unhealthy when you put all your hopes, wants and desires on one single person. Can you imagine the pressure it has to be on that person?? No one can take care of all of their problems (I can’t even take care of mine!), plus yours! Only God can. I have realized that this is something I do. I don’t mean to do it, I just do. I am trying to lean more on God instead of others when trouble arises, but it’s a learning process. And as I should… I’m praying for this too!! : )

Another thing we have to realize is that people are going to let us down. They can’t live up to the ideas and expectations that we have built up for them. They are human and they have faults, actually we all have them, as hard as that is to admit. : ) They don’t intentionally mean to let us down, (well hopefully they don’t!) but it’s just something that happens. I normally blow things out of proportion IN MY HEAD!! And what’s even crazier is that the person probably has no idea anything is wrong!! A classic case of over-analyzing that can only be conquered with God’s help!

So, what I really want you to know is that only God can provide us the unconditional love that we look for and he will never let us down. I read or heard somewhere this week that God is our Valentine. I have never thought of it that way, but it is so true. I am so thankful that God loves me, a weak sinner who is saved by grace. Hope you have a good week!!

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13

God's Love

Hey everyone!! Hopefully everyone is doing great! This year is going by so fast! I can't believe it is already February. The last few weeks have been pretty hectic, with things to do almost everyday but I want to thank God that I haven't got too stressed out about it lately. I'm not going to say I have been stress-free, but I haven't had a holy melt down lately! Whew! I can't wait for a lull in all the activities, but I don't see an end in sight yet!


I am posting the lyrics to a song that is on KSBJ (89.3-Houston). I have heard it many times before but for some reason it has just spoken to me more the last few times I have heard it. It is called "Your Hands" by JJ Heller and it has a really awesome message. Hope you like it...



I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That you would take my pain away
You would take my pain away



I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine


When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands


When you walked upon the earth
You healed the broken, lost and hurt
I know you hate to see me cry
One day you will set all things right
Yeah, one day you will set all things right


When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands

Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me, They hold me still



For some reason, the part about setting all things right seemed so right. We all go through things we don't understand but God will set them right. To me, it's just amazing that God really does care that much!! It's so awesome!!



"Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:39, NIV

God's Plans

Hey everyone! It has been so long since I have wrote. I've been pretty busy and when I'm not busy I just haven't felt like writing. Maybe it's all this cold weather that makes me not feel as motivated as usual. (I'll blame it on that and not laziness!!) So, I'd like to thank God for the wonderful weather we are having today. It's in the 70s and I couldn't be happier. Oh, and I am going with my nephew to Hot Hearts tonight to see TobyMac!!! It's so awesome to see young kids who love the Lord. It's such a blessing!!


As many of us know, God's plans aren't always exactly our plans. I've wrote about this before but everyones situation is different and you always have to look for your silver lining. It may not be the answer you are looking for at the time, but maybe one day you will see it.


I have been through a lot in the last couple of years, but I definitely know that everything happened for a reason. It's still a reason that I can't even begin to comprehend, but God knows. Looking back, I can see things that happened, that changed me to bring me where I am today. I know for certain that I wouldn't have as much faith as I do now, I wouldn't be able to handle all of the small/medium things in life, and I certainly wouldn't be able to share to others what God has done for me. I am still working on that...actually God is. : ) I now know that I can get through MAJOR trials in my life with God and it has shown me that I can get through anything as long as I trust Him.

I thought about this the other day... God will never give you more than you can handle and obviously He has way more faith in me than I do. : ) I feel he has put me in certain situations so I can be there for people. You never know what someone is going through, but just knowing that you are there for them and that you have been in their situation (and made it through!!) may be a huge help! Hopefully you notice areas in your life where you could be a light to others. Hope you have a good weekend!!


And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God. Romans 8:28 NKJV

Happy New Year 2010!!

Happy New Year!!! I am hoping that everyone had a great 2009. Mine was very interesting to say the least, but with the help of God I made it! I am so thankful for God's peace. You can't really understand it till you experience it. Actually, you may not even realize you have it during the trial. But when you do it realize, it is so awesome. And I thank God everyday for his peace!

So, I'm sure you have heard someone mention their New Year's resolutions. I have never been one for resolutions. I normally don't make them but if I do I don't keep them and that sometimes frustrates me. You mostly here of people wanting to become healthier, reduce debt or to decrease the stress in their life. I have been thinking about it and I think this year I want to have a closer relationship to God. Then I started thinking about it a little more and realized that should be a lifetime resolution. But maybe that seems a little intimidating. I normally like to set small goals that I can accomplish, like organize my closet. :) I don't know why but it just sounded overwhelming for me! I guess I don't want to mess anything up, or do anything wrong.

But God doesn't look at it that way. He looks at our heart and knows our motives for why we do the things we do. We aren't always perfect but He doesn't expect us to be. He actually already knew we wouldn't and that is why He sent his Son to die for our sins. The ultimate sacrifice. We should always be so thankful for that gift. I know it is something that I could never do. He is an understanding God, who really cares for us. We need to honestly seek Him and desire to have a better relationship with Him. That should be our lifetime resolution. Hope you have a great year!

"God is our refuge and our strength, an ever present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1