Four years ago this week, I lost my fiancé in a senseless shooting. It has definitely been one of the hardest times in my 29 years on this crazy planet. I still don’t understand why this happened but I know it was all a part of God’s plan. You might think that there isn’t much to be thankful for in this situation, and at the time I felt that way also, but God was there and He still is. First, He has made me a stronger person through everything that has happened. I have Him to thank, as well as the friends and family who have been there for me through everything. Second, through this tragedy God has blessed our church more than anyone could have dreamed. For those of you who don’t know, my fiancés’ dad is the pastor and through all of us affected, there have been many lives that have come to know Jesus, which is the biggest blessing there could be. God used us for his glory!! How amazing is it that God used me, just a regular person. I don’t feel special, actually I feel pretty inadequate most of the time, but God used me and I am so thankful that He allowed me to see that.
There is probably much more to be thankful but God hasn’t opened my eyes to it yet. And as I write this, with tears, I am still thankful that God is with us and that He never leaves us.
“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.” Col 3:15 NIV