Hello! This year, my husband and I started doing bible studies together. It has been something so encouraging for me because he’s taking it so seriously and he has inspired me on many days that I don’t feel like doing it. For this, I am thankful! Again, as God always does, I have been getting repeated messages over perfectionism. It started in our bible study, A BeautifulDesign. I’m paraphrasing, but it said that perfectionism and comparison are women’s sinful desires and that we constantly want people to look at us and say, “Yes, you are enough”. Man, that made so much sense to me, especially in this social media age. Being the introvert, I am on complete opposite spectrum of not wanting to post because I don’t want people to think that I’m bragging or that my life is perfect…but just let me just clarify right now and say that my life is far from perfect!!!
What’s crazy is that we feel as though we have any control over our lives anyway. I mean I used to pride myself on being an overachiever (note that I said pride). I had everything planned out and felt like I had my stuff together; granted that was when I was single, kid-less and still in college so I had all the time in the world!!! Since then my pride has taken a major fall and I am humbled almost daily as I forget things, and make plans when I already have other plans…can anyone relate?! The bible study had a sentence that jumped out to me and made me feel like it summed up my life: “We exhaust ourselves trying to control every moment in vain.” In vain. That resonated with me so much. Who am I kidding, or whom am I trying to prove myself to? I am not perfect and will never be. This is something that God has been trying to get me to see for some time now. I think I mentioned mommy guilt a few posts ago and it’s something so rampant in our society. It’s really sad when you think about it. We're all trying our best, can't we just be happy with that?!
So then a few days later, Proverbs 31 had a devotional that was titled “There is no such thing as a Perfect Decision”. Yes God, I’m listening! Haha. It said that no choice will turn out perfect; it’s only an illusion. If we keep trying to please God with what we are doing, it will never be wrong! Definitely read the whole devotional to get more encouragement!! I’m trying so hard to let go of that old perception of myself. It’s soooooo hard and will take a lot of effort because it’s something that is ingrained in me, but I know that I can do it with God’s help! I have to keep my focus on him and remind myself that I will never be perfect, no one will! Have a blessed day!
“How foolish can you be? After starting your new lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect by your own human effort?” Galatians 3:3 (NLT)